Seeking Alternative Options

 Well it has been a difficult week again.  I am not sure again what to do.  I talked with a friend and she suggested getting a second opinion.  After asking for prayer at church and the prayers of those praying for me, I have decided to go for a second opinion.  I feel at peace with this, even though it will prolong any treatment I receive.

I had spoken with my surgeon and she did not offer any other solutions than surgery.  She was not very encouraging when it came to the MRI biopsy and waiting for the results of the tests.  The attitudes of the staff have seemed to  changed to an attitude of me being an annoyance at best.  Lets just get the surgery over and down with and move on. 

For whatever reason, I'm just not comfortable with going through with the surgery.  I need to find another option.  Maybe this is God letting me know to search for something else. I also have another friend who suggested I go with my gut feelings.

In the meantime. I feel as if the cancer is continuing to grow.  I can sense it growing as each day passes.  I have to admit, I am scared.  The thought of not seeing my great granddaughter grow into a young lady, my grandchildren starting lives of their own, traveling and seeing all the things God has created.  These are important things to me.  

I have made another appointment for a second opinion.  So far, I feel optimistic even though it is going to prolong my treatment.  I have already set up my appointments for the second opinion.  I have also set up my appointment for a consultation with the breast reconstruction surgeon.  Also, why didn't I begin some form of treatment before this thing grew to where it is today.  My hope and prayer is that the cancer hasn't manifested into something worse and can no longer be treated.

I am really working diligently to change my lifestyle habits and built my immune system.  I need to find a way to begin fighting this cancer.  I have begun being more active through physical exercise and changing my diet.  I do feel better overall, but I feel as if the cancer is still spreading.  In a way, I feel as if it is spreading like a wild fire!  Even through this I am also working on keeping my mind focused on God and my family.  

Scarlett